Cognitive Dissonance

Thought, Path, Life syncopation
I think it’s a sign. (I need your rhyme)

I’m alone but this room is filled.
I’m chasing after a thought that doesn’t exist
I have felt this for (h)ours in the blaque of night.

I have felt hours fly by
I fear I will never leave this maze
(I enjoy it too much. I enjoy this too much.)

We must look for beauty within – the chaos.

I’m illuminated.

Behold, our katabasis.
Slow. In we breathe, ( as breath forgets. )

Notes Read. Space is silver.
Black of Night. (Nocturnal.)
Eternal Nocturne.

In the heart of the night there are no distractions.

I have been conditioned to think
what I think is ‘wrong’
is really ‘wrong’
when in reality
what is ‘wrong’ and ‘right’
are completely up to me.

I sit with this ABACUS in my hand…
point to point to point to point to point.

Comfortable in constant movement
(cognitive dissonance)

I am eye to eye with my other side.
I am materialized.
I realize
Does it really exist
Outside our mind?
Our mind?
Our mind?
Your MIND!

ALL IS A NEW VISION
I obey the unknown
WIld wonders now surfacing
( DESIRE )
Full understanding -
further away from my past -
your past (insane)

When I reveal to them the truth,
greater, more natural
I will cave in no longer
I have seen the truth
THERE IS NO TRUTH

Everything I need is inside my head.

The missing piece has been FOUND!
FOOOOUNNNNNDDDDDD!!!!!!

OOUH!!!

Desire what it desires. It. What?
Desire and it desires my needs.
Desire what it desires.
WHAT IS THIS I HEARD!?

“voices in my head”

VOICES! VOICES! VOICE HISS IN MY HEAD!

Both sides.
Both sides.

Impulses guide me.
“guide me.”

Tonight…

Tonight is perfect.
The moon, full
the air, it phases
My letting go begins now
Should I repeat the mistake
of leaving?

“Never.”

You stand in awe.
The mind’s travels are far.

I have stayed inside.
Inside my head.
They say don’t get lost in there..

But at times it gets difficult, like tonight…
Tonight, the calm dark,
I drift with it.
I dance with it.
Feel its embrace.

Feel its embrace.

Who knew you?
Who? new you.
Who new?

–dissertation reversed— backwards time travel–

New you, Tonight.
Both sides.
Voices desire truth.
All is a new vision.
Our mind : Nocturnal & Illuminated.

Tonight, both sides desire truth.
Our mind is a new vision.
ALL IS ILLUMINATED.

Life path.
Path thought.
Life, Path, Thought.
Syncopate Life, Path, Thought.

(This has effected me so much, that I feel void of self now…)

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( Daybreak )